What a good day it has been!!
I woke up this morning with the news that I have been accepted into the Disneyland college program, and whats more, I've earned a scholarship for my performances, experiance, yadda yadda and so on and so forth. Woo hoo! 10 points for the ego boost!
Next, one of my bestest friends came back to Old Navy! When I first started working there, he was the one to take me under his wing and teach me the little known facts. I credit it to him for the reason as to why I know so much about ONC's (Old Navy's credit cards), and why I can give them away so well. It's been a hard last week, and he's noticed the change in my personality, and on his own said "Lauren, do you want to dance?" WHA? Wow, it was so cool!!! He knew exactly how to cheer me up without me saying anything! We turned on some classy, fast christmas music, and waltz...ed around the store for about 10 minutes. So much fun! It was so simple, but so amazing and healing for me. On that same note with the ONC's...I gave away 11 and was named champion of the day by the one and only Alex- and THAT truly is an honor!
I choreographed this dance awhile back, but really havent been able to finish it and put all of the cool tricks into it that I want, so I came home and finished it. I feel accomplished and productive!
What a good day for my self esteem! I really haven't had one of those for what feels like months! Something so simple as to having someone dance with me, changed my entire world around. My goal for tomorrow is to pass it along. I want to do something good for a friend, family member, co-worker, or...I'm going to do it for all of them! I want other people to feel as happy as I am right now, and remeber that the bad days will pass. I love life :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Whoa...I've had waaaaaay too much to drink!!!
I've always wanted to write an angry blog, so watch out baby!
Men are stupid, well....only certain kinds men are stupid. I think there are two kinds of men in this world so let me further elaborate-
There are the men in group one-these are the men that are still living in the late 40's early 50's. They belive that women should shut their mouths and follow them blindly. They want to appear like the good kind of men that really do want to hear about their girlfriends day, or try to be sentimental and sweet, but in reality, they will shut them back down and shove them into a place where they are an inch away from the dirt. They believe women are arm and eye candy, nothing more. All those men should be shot.
Then there are the men in group two- these are the men that let a woman define herself, but still want her to be his. He supports her talents and interests and steps into her world, even though it might be an unknown to him, he is willing to try because he truly cares about her. These are the men that let a woman take her man out and be independant and let her speak her mind without telling her that she is "stupid", "weird", or "just dumb". These men are few and hard to find.
I dont believe in training a man and shaping him into what you want, if it were that easy, I wouldn't be writing this blog. However, there are a few men in my life that are very good to me, but I have been ignorant to them. I have interest in one, but cannot physically get to know him. Not physically like, oh ya know...kissing and all that jazz, but with my decision to move to California (yes, I AM moving, and there is no one in this world that could tell me no), I might have the opportunity to get to know him better. Yeah, I will just come out and say it, he's a missionary, and I'm trying to just think of him and write to him as a friend, but we are so alike, I cant help but already sway. He has recently made it known (and I have equally accepted) that we can only be friends while he is on his mission, but upon returning home, he wants to try to be mine. So...maybe this wasn't such an angry blog after all. There is a slight ray of light shining in a very dark room, but even if he is just a dream that is too good to be true, I KNOW that something is out there in California for me. I knew it the moment I left last summer and came back to Utah. I found something small to distract me, but all along I knew that I was not in the right place. No more stalling! My happiness resides in California, and even though I know I will be happy, I know that it wont be all sunshine and bubbles. Its going to be hard and not without challenge, but It is one that I am willing to jump headfirst into. I can fight my way through this hard world, as long as you give me my California and my Disneyland.
Try to change me, and you will regret it!
Men are stupid, well....only certain kinds men are stupid. I think there are two kinds of men in this world so let me further elaborate-
There are the men in group one-these are the men that are still living in the late 40's early 50's. They belive that women should shut their mouths and follow them blindly. They want to appear like the good kind of men that really do want to hear about their girlfriends day, or try to be sentimental and sweet, but in reality, they will shut them back down and shove them into a place where they are an inch away from the dirt. They believe women are arm and eye candy, nothing more. All those men should be shot.
Then there are the men in group two- these are the men that let a woman define herself, but still want her to be his. He supports her talents and interests and steps into her world, even though it might be an unknown to him, he is willing to try because he truly cares about her. These are the men that let a woman take her man out and be independant and let her speak her mind without telling her that she is "stupid", "weird", or "just dumb". These men are few and hard to find.
I dont believe in training a man and shaping him into what you want, if it were that easy, I wouldn't be writing this blog. However, there are a few men in my life that are very good to me, but I have been ignorant to them. I have interest in one, but cannot physically get to know him. Not physically like, oh ya know...kissing and all that jazz, but with my decision to move to California (yes, I AM moving, and there is no one in this world that could tell me no), I might have the opportunity to get to know him better. Yeah, I will just come out and say it, he's a missionary, and I'm trying to just think of him and write to him as a friend, but we are so alike, I cant help but already sway. He has recently made it known (and I have equally accepted) that we can only be friends while he is on his mission, but upon returning home, he wants to try to be mine. So...maybe this wasn't such an angry blog after all. There is a slight ray of light shining in a very dark room, but even if he is just a dream that is too good to be true, I KNOW that something is out there in California for me. I knew it the moment I left last summer and came back to Utah. I found something small to distract me, but all along I knew that I was not in the right place. No more stalling! My happiness resides in California, and even though I know I will be happy, I know that it wont be all sunshine and bubbles. Its going to be hard and not without challenge, but It is one that I am willing to jump headfirst into. I can fight my way through this hard world, as long as you give me my California and my Disneyland.
Try to change me, and you will regret it!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Go Lazz!
If you understand the title of this blog, you are my new favorite friend :)
I woke up this morning so thankful for William Willett! If you dont know who that is...google him. Also, I am thankful for late church. Sleep in, lazily stumble around the house for a few hours, then get dressed and go to church, and it helps when I haven't really planned out my primary lesson for the day yet.
This morning was a particularly wonderful morning, as I ventured outside to sit on my swing in my backyard and just let the rain pour down on me. I find that nothing makes me feel better, almost as if the rain is just washing away all my cares and stress from the previous week. My boyfriend told me that he loves the fall because the weather is so crisp and clean. I questioned him, asking how you know or how you can tell when the weather is crisp, but this morning, my question was answered, and I am in love with days like this.
To my surprise and shock, it was announced in my home that we're setting up our Christmas tree today! Usually every year, we give our parents grief and we set up the tree about the second or third week in November, but my father (usually the one who is the most stubborn about it), openly agreed. To be quite frank, we have so many Christmas decorations that it usually takes us until the week before Christmas to fully set up. We set up the tree in our family room and it sits there undecorated for a few weeks because we are just too lazy, or...maybe its because we are never all home at the same time, but I digress...
I miss seeing the Mormon Tabernacle Choir perform. My family used to go once every month when we were all younger and lived together, but as members have moved out, Sunday callings have been assigned, ect., we dont go as often as we would like. I am so stoked to go see them in concert this year around Christmastime! Like, I cant even begin to verbalize my excitement. Every year, the choir does a Christmas concert with some amazing person and past concerts I've attended have included Sissel, Angela Lansbury, Gladys Knight, The King Singers, Audra McDonald, Rene Flemming, Walter Cronkite, and some others that I just cant remember. Still though, its always a spiritual uplifting thing to do around Christmas that brings my family, and whoever comes with us, a little closer.
Time for church! We are practicing the Primary Program today...oh dear...give me strength!
I woke up this morning so thankful for William Willett! If you dont know who that is...google him. Also, I am thankful for late church. Sleep in, lazily stumble around the house for a few hours, then get dressed and go to church, and it helps when I haven't really planned out my primary lesson for the day yet.
This morning was a particularly wonderful morning, as I ventured outside to sit on my swing in my backyard and just let the rain pour down on me. I find that nothing makes me feel better, almost as if the rain is just washing away all my cares and stress from the previous week. My boyfriend told me that he loves the fall because the weather is so crisp and clean. I questioned him, asking how you know or how you can tell when the weather is crisp, but this morning, my question was answered, and I am in love with days like this.
To my surprise and shock, it was announced in my home that we're setting up our Christmas tree today! Usually every year, we give our parents grief and we set up the tree about the second or third week in November, but my father (usually the one who is the most stubborn about it), openly agreed. To be quite frank, we have so many Christmas decorations that it usually takes us until the week before Christmas to fully set up. We set up the tree in our family room and it sits there undecorated for a few weeks because we are just too lazy, or...maybe its because we are never all home at the same time, but I digress...
I miss seeing the Mormon Tabernacle Choir perform. My family used to go once every month when we were all younger and lived together, but as members have moved out, Sunday callings have been assigned, ect., we dont go as often as we would like. I am so stoked to go see them in concert this year around Christmastime! Like, I cant even begin to verbalize my excitement. Every year, the choir does a Christmas concert with some amazing person and past concerts I've attended have included Sissel, Angela Lansbury, Gladys Knight, The King Singers, Audra McDonald, Rene Flemming, Walter Cronkite, and some others that I just cant remember. Still though, its always a spiritual uplifting thing to do around Christmas that brings my family, and whoever comes with us, a little closer.
Time for church! We are practicing the Primary Program today...oh dear...give me strength!
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