Its Either Sadness or Euphoria

I don't know what to say...I guess I should start out with a big sorry. Sorry to Alex, Ben, Ben, Tysen and Brad. You know why.

Whats changed since my last blog? Um, nothing. Oh, I did get a job promotion at Old Navy, and realizing that I can be successful If I really want to. Our district manager is preparing me for TAPS (or in other words, the head honchos of Old Navy sit in a panel and grill me on everything about the store), so within a month, I could be moving to another store...in another state and all that fun stuff. I cant leave just quite yet though, I still have a few commitments here, so in May, well...we'll see what happens.

Sometimes I feel so sad. Its an inconsolable darkness. I am the worst person in the world at defining the emotion of sadness! Last night I took a long look at what I have thought has made me so sad, and realize that its a choice, but I've made choices to only encourage and ensure that there would be sadness in my life. I decided at about midnight last night to make my New Years Resolution list to ease my sadness and guilt. In the spirit of the season, or at least, the season that I feel should be kept all through out the year, here are a few of my resolutions-
* Forgive and Forget
* eat 50bazillion calories every day (...maybe not THAT much)
* get up the courage to tell people what's really on my mind
* be less cynical and bitter
* go to Disneyworld
* make a new, close friend
* to make a snow cave
* to watch "Enchanted" on Blu Ray ( *hopeful look* :) )
I think that's all I want to share with those of you that read this. If you want to read whats REALLY on my mind, you will just have to tune into my secret blog, and if you don't know that address, you should bribe me with something to let you into the secret (Jeremy, you really do have wonderful ideas!).
Sometimes things happen to me that make me wonder if I am really living the life I am. Meaning, sometimes I wonder if I am the next contestant on "The Truman Show". Case and point- the strangest, weirdest things always happen to me. Things that would NEVER happen to anyone else. I was driving down the road, on my merry way home, and had some good song blasting through my car ( I wish I could remember what it was), and OF COURSE I get pulled over. I wasn't speeding, I didn't have any drugs, I was pretty sure all my lights were working...so the guy gets out of his car, I roll down my window, and he starts laughing at me! He's laughing at me!! He says he was watching me dance in my car as I was going down the road and thought it was so funny that he wanted to pull me over and tell me that it made him laugh. Then he gave me a gift card to Wendy's and went back on his way. Does that really happen to people?? Well, at least I know that I have mastered the art of driving and dancing at the same time. Can you say...New Reality TV Show?? 101 ways to freak people out!

Another thing, I love Summer Highland Falls! Billy said it best when he sung " For we are always what our situation hands us, it's either sadness or euphoria". That is the song of my life right now. Okay, time to go to work. It feels good to write again, hopefully I have time to do it again one day.